advice.
April 7, 2013 | 4:41 PM
Sometimes you get so much advice, but you know you will only take the one thst fits most closely with what you originally wanted to do. I feel that way now, and even though I thank everyone for talking/berating/encouraging me, I would do what I want.
I'm surprisingly rational now, there's none of that desperate emotion I used to feel. Tears don't come, I'm not depressed or sad over anything. Expectation is a big factor in all of that, and I don't have any right now. It is a kind of melancholy sometimes, though, and maybe that's why I'm just spamming old schol cpop everyday now.
What doesn't make sense to me is either he's blind and stubborn to the fact that we have so much chemistry and have so much fun together, or the person I don't know anything about is too freaking amazing.
And I don't want to keep thinking that the latter is the case, because it will affect my self esteem, bit by bit. Before it does that either him and I would have to give.
velda.
